subsequent
i loved you as if there was no such thing as yesterday or tomorrow. i put it all in and i gave every ounce of my effort because with you i figured there was nothing i needed to borrow. maybe you noticed the blood that dripped from the finger tip i pricked, the sweat on my upper lip or the tears that slipped off of my chin. maybe you didn’t or just ignored it instead. maybe i was the only one who was in it because all you’ve ever done is left me wondering why you are always so distant. the blind fold i got when we met is still secured around my head and i don’t believe i will ever be able to untie its knot. like its stuck on and i’m never going to get it off. i got caught up in pretending that you were perfect so i started seeing what i wanted to believe when i should have shut the door behind me as i showed myself out. i wish i could shake you by your shoulders and the surface would clean itself like an etch a sketch. then maybe we could start fresh again like our past could never catch up to us as if it was a present.
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