atomic bomb
when the metal band my brother plays bass in got signed i told my then musician boyfriend and he couldn’t believe that some shit band from some shit town in the mid west got a deal when there are so many people here in new york city who are so much more worthy of distribution. he said it like they didn’t work hard to create a cult following at home with their grass roots and stuck together for six years before they could celebrate victory. i guess that’s not worth a pretty penny. this is also the same person who told me once how he noticed me in a room full of patrons while he was on stage with the previous lover and he remembered mentally pointing at me as if i was a shiny new toy waiting to be picked off the shelf. he had no idea duchess and me were connected and mr. white is the reason why i met all of them. not long after that the duke came across the pond and maybe we were all happy for a second but i can’t change the fact that we are all still here waiting for someone to blow up. they say you need to have patience because good things come to those who wait but i don’t believe in that statement. maybe we do make our own fate and we’re alive only because we left the right place in the right time. bad things happen to me and you. self destruct in five four three two