xoxo, nico

danger

…feels so good.

evidently my addiction has not subsided. he remains present and I will be seeing him this week.

i have no soul it seems.

no soul or self control.

there’s a way to kiss and make-up for the lies and twists hidden between significant friendships. only time can heal these wounds and even if the scar tissue was cut open after the stitches were removed months ago you could still end up bleeding blue blood. i rolled up a photograph and slipped it into an empty wine jug carefully packed at the bottom of an old treasure chest buried in a hope cove. the fragile stickers have been worn off for years and the last drop stained the edge of my imagination when i fit the cork back on top. there’s a hand drawn map folded in my pocket and i never leave home without the broken compass concealed in a hand me down locket. a fortune teller once told me i hold the soul of a young love who was taken away before she was supposed to go. i wonder if that’s the reason why i always find i myself in the wrong place at the right time or if patients is playing tricks on me while i sit and wait for the one and only who can show me directions back to where i will dig up my time capsule. eventually i’ll be able to replace the pair of white lace gloves i borrowed to brush off all the dust and uncover what i had to forget to loose on purpose.

now i lay me
down to sleep

i pray the lord
my soul to keep

if i die
before i wake

i pray the lord
my soul to take

duchess got word that adam duritz was going to be at canal room because he’s working with a new artist. she is obsessed with him for one because he’s jewish and duchess loves being jewish but more importantly because she thinks he’s one of the best song writers of our generation. he got on stage and sang background for hip hop to rock. i was wearing a short tweed skirt and the club owner hit on me so we got up the steps to vip only. when they were done playing the band came up to mingle so i complimented the skull belt on the dude who played keys and that got us down to the basement; me on my knees.

i have never seen duchess so star struck.